Strength-less!

I love to grumble! I love to complain! who don't complain?!?

I find it difficult to forgive a person! I cant find a reason to forgive, she's been triggering my anger all the time and made me feel myself so useless and I even feel that I don't have prides. 

But a soft voice spoke to me which I reluctant to listen which is FORGIVE! Oh lord forgive this big word really challenges people. Oh well, In fact, I've already forgiven that particular person. I just love to complain and grumble about everything that happened in my life.

Devils attacked me at the time when I feel frustrated, feel negative about everything in life.

Recently I found my soul is drowning, I hardly find a peace in my heart. and This is so not me if compared to last time. I rarely shared my feelings with people maybe I'm afraid and care how people see me or maybe I can't find trust in anybody. I'm timid!

God, I need strength to stand up! I need powerful motivation! Why people are getting more excited about their life and I still maintain like a dead soul, I need something to trigger and stimulate my fire. I need to change my life and discard all those negative thoughts. 

Shouting to Lord : "GOD, PLEASE GRANT ME STRENGTH!"