Uncontrollable emotion!

I wanna release my feelings! I got no place to release until I come to this box.

I feel very restless n uneasy! Few days back, I had developed some skin rashes on my body n I hate the stupid name called fungal infection! I can't bear with the feelings anymore, it's disgusting for me and I think it'd b the most disgusting thing ever in my life. sorry If u think I'm overacting but I just share my feelings truly deep from
the bottom of my heart. I really cant stand it!

I know that first thing came to ppl mind is " yee, omg must b u din wash properly, u're vry dirty n stuff lidat" WHATEVERR!

" Whenever I consulted the medical officer, I was kind of big reaction, I told him I maintained my hygiene why it'd b me?! he explained to me
that college life is normal to get this from others, u r clean but doesn't mean tat ppl maintain their hygiene. He asked me to cool myself down n get some drugs to take n cream to apply. see how after 1 week, if worse still, consult skin specialist. argh! I can't wait for 1 week.

1 day is enuf torturing for me!
I'm restless! I'm itchy n I cannot scratch cz they will leave damn ugly scars! The feelings is like shit n made me think of my chicken pox horrible terrible experience! My temper became very very bad! I burst out and I scolded people!

I bathe very frequently and apply the cream each time after the bath. Turn on the water shower and found it was very dirty n rusty which contributes to my anger n grumble! but I still gotta use that water to bathe!
I feel refresh at the first hour after I bathe but it's worsening after that!
#%$*^!!!!
Even ppl convinced me it'd b okay, u'll b fine,...the words still can't go into my ears.
My mummy n daddy said that "why u have so many health problems after joining nursing?- this sentence made me feel like crying n many negative thoughts came in my mind!

I feel myself suddenly
became so IRRITATING!

until here I stop
or else this would b a complain letter!

p/s: I've been rolling on the bed since 11sth ! and now! It's already 2 a.m.! Great !!!