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Surprise!

2011-11-21T17:14:00.001+08:00

I love flowers! Should be said, Girls loves flowers! :D
This is the second time I received flowers from him and the surprise was big for me! :)))))
When I was revising for my final test during revision class, somebody told me that there was a bouquet of flowers for me.
My first thought was "Are You Sure Is For Me?" (eyes popping out, pen down)
I quickly went to the general office to confirm and Yes it was for me.
24 white roses with a card inside. (still doubting)
The clerk who passed the flowers to me asked me :" Today is your birthday?"
"nope, I answered and smiling away"
Quickly I opened the card and read the contents. It was from him. :)
(Not to reveal the contents of the card :p)
But I felt truly sweet and touched in my heart.
I'm thankful for his trying to be romantic deeds and I appreciate his effort to make me happy.
My friends told me it was a booster for me to get the mood to study for tomorrow's test. (laughs)
I googled the meaning behind the colour and the number of the roses and I found.

24 roses means Can't stop thinking about you, 24 hours everyday

White roses means Spiritual love & Purity, the rose of confession, the bridal rose; "You are heavenly", "I am worthy of you"

The latest photo we've taken :)

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Mourning

2011-11-21T16:41:00.001+08:00

Good Morning, Kak Jasv.

Kak Jasv, Token, satu (smile on the face).

Kak Jasv, Got my parcels?

Kak Jasv, Can I get some majong papers?

....

All these sentences will always be remembered in my heart. :')

Things happened too suddenly and no one wish the ending would be like this.

I'm still in denial stage as I couldn't accept the fact that she is forever gone. Insomnia attacked me yesterday night as I was thinking about you and I thought of the the past.

You were the first person who talked to me when I first entered to this college.

You were the one who held and supported me when I was limping to the General Office for interview.

You were the first person who concern about me in this college.

All the little little things u said and did for us made a big impact in our life.

I miss your presence everywhere in this college, I miss the time greeting you and talking to you, I miss your 3 children waiting for you at the lobby, playing around and sleeping in the cafeteria. I miss the time they called you mama and showed happy expression when they saw you to go home together.

Your contribution to this college is highly appreciated and you will be remembered forever.

Kak Jasv, I miss you already :"(

The last token that I've received from you.

Uncontrollable emotion!

2011-10-16T01:48:00.001+08:00

I wanna release my feelings! I got no place to release until I come to this box.

I feel very restless n uneasy! Few days back, I had developed some skin rashes on my body n I hate the stupid name called fungal infection! I can't bear with the feelings anymore, it's disgusting for me and I think it'd b the most disgusting thing ever in my life. sorry If u think I'm overacting but I just share my feelings truly deep from
the bottom of my heart. I really cant stand it!

I know that first thing came to ppl mind is " yee, omg must b u din wash properly, u're vry dirty n stuff lidat" WHATEVERR!

" Whenever I consulted the medical officer, I was kind of big reaction, I told him I maintained my hygiene why it'd b me?! he explained to me
that college life is normal to get this from others, u r clean but doesn't mean tat ppl maintain their hygiene. He asked me to cool myself down n get some drugs to take n cream to apply. see how after 1 week, if worse still, consult skin specialist. argh! I can't wait for 1 week.

1 day is enuf torturing for me!
I'm restless! I'm itchy n I cannot scratch cz they will leave damn ugly scars! The feelings is like shit n made me think of my chicken pox horrible terrible experience! My temper became very very bad! I burst out and I scolded people!

I bathe very frequently and apply the cream each time after the bath. Turn on the water shower and found it was very dirty n rusty which contributes to my anger n grumble! but I still gotta use that water to bathe!
I feel refresh at the first hour after I bathe but it's worsening after that!
#%$*^!!!!
Even ppl convinced me it'd b okay, u'll b fine,...the words still can't go into my ears.
My mummy n daddy said that "why u have so many health problems after joining nursing?- this sentence made me feel like crying n many negative thoughts came in my mind!

I feel myself suddenly
became so IRRITATING!

until here I stop
or else this would b a complain letter!

p/s: I've been rolling on the bed since 11sth ! and now! It's already 2 a.m.! Great !!!

My shopping lists!

2011-10-06T11:58:00.003+08:00

I seriously want to shop very very badly! I've been working like a cow for the past few weeks and I need to take a break to relax. Shopping is all girls' need because...

AGREE??

Below are my shopping lists!

1. Skinny Jeans

2. White Dress

3. Bracelet

4. Leather Bag

5. Nike Cap

6. Red Shoes

But I need two things in the first place which is..... :C

Post night shift syndrome!

2011-10-06T06:41:00.004+08:00

I have just finished my night shift and I feel like the time is flying! The date is passing without my realization bcz my time n date is upside down for the past few days! I can't adjust my sleep after long long time din do night shift and my eyes are swollen like a PANDA! omg ppl are sleeping like nobody's business and I'm awake now!? I'm awake since 4 a.m. in the morning. Gosh, I'm having a severe headache, it's cracking but I just can't sleep! Tired but can't sleep is a torture!

And now I diagnosed myself having post night shift syndrome! OMG It's suffering!!!!

taken this picture yesterday. my dark circle still can be seen eventhou I've put some foundation ><

weeee!

2011-09-02T20:20:00.000+08:00

Holidays is like a mood stabilizer for me!
I feel great and fresh after my 3 days off, one word to describe! AWESOME!

will update more...I have journal to complete >< ciau...bye bye

Helpless! Suffocating!

2011-08-24T18:32:00.003+08:00

Scrolling down my blog and I found that I didn't update blog for July at all and now It's end of the August! Gosh, my blog is dying! I seriously very busy with my semester and almost everyday my schedule is packed!

Recently, I feel my pressure is up to my throat and I'm suffocating! I'm drowning soon, everything just went hairwired in every aspect! I can't take it soon, I'm just a human made by a piece of flesh and blood, I need to take a break.

I miss home so much, I feel most comfortable being with my family 'cz I need not carry the burden and need to think carefully before I speak anything, they give me warmth and love. I miss them !!!

Can't wait for my holidays to come!

Am drowning...

blub blub blub....

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My One Day Off

2011-06-21T21:42:00.007+08:00

Today is my off day after so long and one day is definitely not enough for me! T.T

I woke up early today to go out with an old friend to have breakfast and then we watched a movie in One Utama and the movie was Dylan Dog. Well, I commented the movie lame bcz it was only about vampires and undead bodies and not horrible at all but I persuaded myself that at least the actor is handsome because he is Brandon Routh, so...okay la not that bad la ....LOL!! We actually planned to sing k but time not allow as he got task to do and I have my own to-do-list to complete.

After that, I went back to college. There was a bucket of clothes and bedsheets to wash and a pile of journal to write. Oh hell ah, my off day just past like that. :(
And now I'm resting in my seat to update my blog as it is rusty , well I can feel that my leg muscle is pulling and my back is aching because I'm currently posting(working) at medical ward and we have many bed-ridden old gong gong and po po in the ward. Almost everyday after work, my legs are in severe pain and edema I supposed bcz it appeared a vry obvious fingers markings when I pressed it and it took a few seconds to return to normal : (

I'm not complaining but to share with u guys. Being a nurse is not as easy as ABC, u must have a good backbone so that u can lift up patients everyday. U must have a loving and kind-hearted to love and take care of ur patients. U must have knowledge to perform the procedures on the patients and a little mistakes may cause harm to the patients. U have to be patient for example when u feeding some old patients, sometimes u might get scolded by them bcz they are confused and they might spit the food towards u and I've encountered for a few times. U might get some scoldings from doctors because of ur minor or major mistakes, u might get scolded by some fussy patients or relatives and things like that. And more...
Well, this is my job and I have to love it! =)

What I want to say is ...one day off for nurses is not enough lar =(
*emo*and tomorrow I'm working again!

The Process of Making the Ghost House ...

2011-04-10T16:43:00.116+08:00

Recently, my college held an event called Food Fun Fair and it is mainly for open day for new intake of students and for fund-raising as well. We had a lot of activities and stations and I was involved in Ghost House Team during that event. Our Haunted House named "Die Hard". Sounds CHILL rite?
Well I'd like to share the process of making the ghost house with u'all, the experience was incredible as we all enjoyed very much during the process and the event as well.
Well, let's not talk much about it but pictures with captions come first.

my teammate-Crystal and I editing the ghost sound effects

the ghost mother(LingLing) is practicing how to scare people LOL

another female ghost(Chin Hui) is practicing how to climb and scare people LOL!

random shot

making the ghost head...

she(LayLee) tried some ghost makeup but tis one looks like clown makeup haha! thanks to ChinHui! -.-''

female ghost in the coffin (testing)

two people at the back of coffin haha!

the girls are drawing the banner of Ghost House! KUAT PROMOTION!

having a meeting to test the round

making the fake wounded hands

we have professional wound-making girls here wow!

haha!! our mentor's idea to add this in our ghost house! not bad HUH!

Ghost mother comes again!

fake hand shines on RIP board...

our coffin...

NAH! the ghost head without hair!

the jailed ghost will hit the chain on the floor randomly when see people coming

the ghost without left eye that will shout "where's my eye!!"

and That's me!! so called Ghost House Guide! haha!

with the coffin female ghost!!

with the crew ~

cekik her!!!

devil-cum-angel ghost house guide teeheehee!

with my another partner ghost house guide!

Ghost House Guide is promoting the ghost house!muahahah!

This is how I promote our haunted hause LOL

those kids are scared of me wahahaha! and I've made some of them cried Opsss (I nvr do anythg to them)

CUSTOMERS !!! Lelong!!

1st batch of "customers"!

The ghost house team!

the team with the tutor!

Aha! Finally! Ghost House Guide needs some rest n break time :p

Overall, our ghost house has earned the most during the food fun fair cz it attracted most of the "customers". Thank you for our ideas and efforts!!!

"Die Hard" rocks!

My 20th Birthday :)

2011-04-03T23:28:00.032+08:00

"My Birthday Falls On One Day Before Test II. GREAT! "

Well well, I did not feel depressed for it as I managed to go back to my hometown eventhou not more than 24 hours, :S I had a whale of time with my family, good fellowship with my cousins. Besides that, I did enjoy my awesome birthday celebration with college-mates eventhou the next day was our exam. I'd like to give thanks to them as they willing to put down their books for a while to celebrate my birthday. I appreciate them.

THANK YOU!!

at hometown ;)

at college C:

Strength-less!

2011-03-24T11:40:00.004+08:00

I love to grumble! I love to complain! who don't complain?!?

I find it difficult to forgive a person! I cant find a reason to forgive, she's been triggering my anger all the time and made me feel myself so useless and I even feel that I don't have prides.

But a soft voice spoke to me which I reluctant to listen which is FORGIVE! Oh lord forgive this big word really challenges people. Oh well, In fact, I've already forgiven that particular person. I just love to complain and grumble about everything that happened in my life.

Devils attacked me at the time when I feel frustrated, feel negative about everything in life.

Recently I found my soul is drowning, I hardly find a peace in my heart. and This is so not me if compared to last time. I rarely shared my feelings with people maybe I'm afraid and care how people see me or maybe I can't find trust in anybody. I'm timid!

God, I need strength to stand up! I need powerful motivation! Why people are getting more excited about their life and I still maintain like a dead soul, I need something to trigger and stimulate my fire. I need to change my life and discard all those negative thoughts.

Shouting to Lord : "GOD, PLEASE GRANT ME STRENGTH!"

♥ Valentine's day ♥

2011-02-14T23:21:00.004+08:00

Everyone seems like in the mood of celebrating Valentine's day as the next day is Public Holiday!

So most of them don't care about the college curfew, I guess :S

Everyone is like :" Jom, let's get wet"!

Well, this time I'm not gonna write much about my Valentine's celebration bcz I'm very long-winded and my sister said that I always post lengthy blog and nobody gonna bother about the wordy post but only will see the pictures! I'm the one who is lazy to upload photos cz the line is like turtle and I lose patience very quickly bcz of the line.

So, in short,
give a lil bit of introduction + upload alot of photos = people will read the blog

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< Celebrating my roommate's birthday whose birthday falls on valentine's day! >

We requested to write the birthday wishes by our own :)

Squeezing the cream to form the words on the birthday cake!

Aya! Finally! It's done! but ugly x)

The girls are posing

Surprise birthday party!

Yam! keep ur tongue inside!

What la this facial expression!?

We called this as smashed cake instead of chocolate indulgence! LoL

Taken at level 8 pantry!

Group picture! Taken at my room!

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< Celebrating Valentine's day with Mr. Boyfriend >

First time ever received flower and handmade card from him,

Thanks for everything!!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

Another post of mine

2011-02-07T20:33:00.005+08:00

What is blogger for?

To share, to pour out feelings, to "show off", to complain, etc...etc...

But sometimes I feel tat blogger is for talking rubbish lol

Sigh, sometimes I feel like I have the urge to write but most of the time I give up writing bcz of my laziness, tiredness and lame excuses!

well whatever it is, today, I jz wanna write whatever I want to write on my post.

I can't think of any titles to put

as I really dun have any ideas of what I actually really want to write : /

and so my title is : Another post of mine

It seems like recently everybody is posting abt CNY celebrations,

People talked about how great and how fun is their CNY celebrations,

but to me, my CNY is jz like another-fantastic-7-days-holiday

and I din really feel the CNY mood

as d duration is too short and my angpau is VERY LITTLE!

well forget about d angpaus

cause' I din really visit frens' houses but only relatives' during this CNY.

I admit tat I'm a very stingy person as I seldom, rarely or hardly take out my time for my friends cz I think tat such precious time is meant for my family.

When came to end of the holidays, I found tat time wasn't enuf for friends,

and I've actually regretted for being so called stingy.

Sorry to my friends and I guess tat they've already given up calling me out for gathering

as I'm still holding the name of "well known "FFK" queen"

I always tell myself to prioritize things tat I'm supposed to do

but I always fail in allocating time =S

well, let me talk about another matter that happen presently.

Recently, I feel tat myself very

easily get irritated, annoyed, sensitive and emotional. *negative stuffs*

hate myself being so irritable and irrational!

my anger gets stirred up very easily even thou it is

a little minor thing which only can b seen by magnifying glasses

Oh gosh i really need to look at myself in the mirror

whats wrong with me and I seriously think tat it's matter abt hormone imbalances ><

sorry to those ppl who I've thrown my tantrum to

sorry for my irrationality and sensitivity

THIS IS SO NOT ME!!!

God please help me!

Speak to me!! ><

well, another thing to share,

my Sem IV test I falls on this sat and next week wed,thurs and fri.

Duh, gotta drag myself out from enjoyableness to do early revision

as I've been so get used to last minute!

I think it is bad for health and brain

cz last minute use up extreme brain power to stuff all things together at one time.
Sigh, life isn't easy!

!@#$%&*@#$!

See, I've written so much of rubbish again!

*bang wall*

Loss and Gain!

2011-01-21T19:12:00.003+08:00

Based on the title itself can roughly tell u what I'm going to write bout'

I would like to share the "Loss and Gain" that happened on me in this Month.

1. THE LOSS

Piffffffff!!!! My CIMB card was stucked in the automated teller machine when I wanted to withdraw money at Sunway pyramid shopping centre! Ahh, it spoiled my mood in the morning bcz I have to do alot of procedures like cancelling the account, applying a new card and making a report etc...etc... I hate stuffs like this la cz' they take my time ISH!

Something makes me angry when I look at it.

This paper came out from the stupid machine!!
What la this! I want my card! gimme back my card!!! Pifffffff...
I screwed the paper into tight ball because I was so angry at tat moment! -.-"

2. THE GAIN

Let's talk sth happy. First time ever I won a lucky draw in my lifetime, what a wonder for me, really couldn't believe it. Guess what is it?!

JANG JANG JANG JANG!

Yo, it is a hamper which is sponsored by a doctor.

It's actually one of the 200 lucky draws from an event in my Hospital.

My Christmas Celebration :)

2010-12-25T15:41:00.210+08:00

Ho...Ho...Ho...

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!

Christmas gifts from my loved ones

Guess what is it!?

It's lovely key chain from Yen Xia :D

Awesome gift from boy friend =)

Handmade card from my dear Shepherd C:

Delicious Chocolate and handmade biscuits from my both pet sisters xD

Christmas Eve

X'mas mood is in d air.

In the Restaurant.

So called Homemade "Tong Yun" slurpss

he's trying to capture nice pictures

Santa hat :)

:)

Christmas Celebration @ church

I love the glittering lights up there

he's cool

little cute kids singing together on the stage (white angels)

Now, adult group's turn to sing (all in red)

pray n worship team bring the atmosphere into the church.

My churchmates and I (before leaving)

My christmas celebration was so so, and I was working on nite shift on tat day :/

Smashed fingers!

2010-12-22T20:40:00.002+08:00

SLAM! SLAM!! SLAM!!!
OUCH ! I got my left middle and 4th fingers smashed in the door. omg I cant bear the dull throbbing.
I can't go to work bcz my fingers are swollen, bleeding, blood collected under the nail and my fingers cannot be bent or straightened easily. *SCREAMING*
Oh my mama miya, I'm forced to take the MC. Seriously, I really dun wish to take any MC again! Ish!

after dressing done

Protect ur fingers!!

~~p/s: I'm using one hand to type~~

Woah!

2010-12-19T01:46:00.002+08:00

~~I've cut my fringe!~~

Ignore the bunny band, HaHa

Home tomorrow!

2010-12-15T23:10:00.001+08:00

Well, I'm going home tomorrow morning! :)

Gee...

Decision made.

2010-12-12T22:41:00.010+08:00

While I was watching drama, out of sudden, many things popped out in my mind without alarming and made me couldn't continue with my relaxing activities.

These are the few things that came in my mind.

1. I haven't chosen any case study for semester III. (Oh Gosh)

2. I haven't done my checklist for ICU due to 5days MC.

3. I haven't finished writing my reflective journal.

4. I didn't achieved ANY procedures for current posting.

I have a question in my mind,
Should I go back to hometown on Thursday?
since I have so much things left undone.

Answer:
I will go back.

I miss my family thou I saw them last week.

I miss my hometown food no matter where I am.

I miss my hometown friends cz we didn't met up for ages.

I miss my home sweet bed and room cz it's so comfy and cool.

I miss astro channels.

I miss shopping with mummy and sisters.

Alright, I've decided to go back.

I can't tell the feeling.

2010-12-09T20:38:00.005+08:00

I feel so stressful yet I don't know how to describe.

I've just read an email, here's about the beautiful msg...

Once there was a man who asked God for a flower and a butterfly.

But instead God gave him a cactus...and a caterpillar.

The man was sad, he didn't understand why his request was mistaken.

Then he thought, Oh well, God has too many ppl to care for, and decided not to question.

After some time, the man went to check up on his request that he had left forgotten.

To his surprise, the thorny and ugly cactus a beautiful flower has grown, and the unsightly caterpillar had been transformed into the most beautiful butterfly.

God will always give us what we need at appropriate time. =)

Today's THORN...

Is Tomorrow's FLOWER...

On X'mas mood

2010-12-08T19:52:00.007+08:00

Look how fast the time has flown.

It's already December!

Think 'bout what for this month?

Of cz!

X'mas!!!

It's not merely a public holiday, but It's Jesus' birthday :)

Christmas is one of my favourite festivals.

On that day,

I wish to see a winter scene with snow falling, (It's impossible in M'sia)

And some beautiful Christmas songs with music,

Santa Claus appears in front of me,

wish me a Merry Christmas!

Rawww!

Can't wait for the day to come!!

I'm loved.

2010-12-03T23:33:00.007+08:00

When u're sick, u don't feel like eating, it's normal.

But when u see food as below, ur appetite is back! :))

Thanks to mummy and granny specially prepared for me, weeee....

Plain porridge, some vege and meat and FRUITS!

Rice, fish, vege and bakuteh soup weee

Jagung xD

Meehun soup with vege and lots of fish balls,meat balls and internal organs :O

Guava and papaya

Orange,papaya and grapessss wootss

I feel so blessed that I have family's love. :))

Being isolated.

2010-12-01T21:47:00.006+08:00

I've been sick for the past few days, thought it was nothing, but it was actually Influenza A positive.

Well, whatever it is, bcz of this, I got 5 days mc, Should I be happy? or sad?

Seriously, I'm quite emotionally down aft getting the mc. I'm not a workaholic but I jz couldn't accept tat I'm going to waste my ICU posting.

please take note : Everyone of us has only 2 weeks time in ICU but I'm going to waste my 3days chance to learn things!!!

my nurses friends would definitely understand what I'm saying.

maybe to some of my friends, I'm talking Greek. @.@

I gotta isolate myself in a room at my hometown for 5 days and follow some rules to prevent the spread of the virus.

Cover my nose and mouth with a tissue when I cough or sneeze—throw the tissue into a plastic bag n tie it to avoid exposing the germs.
Wash hands often with soap and water, especially after coughing or sneezing.
Stay away as much as I can from people who are sick.
Wear mask when ppl come near me.

Blah blah blah...

Take medicine, sleep, eat, bathe, on9 in an isolation room...

I'm so bored :(

Do You Know How Great You Can Be?!

2010-11-26T21:31:00.009+08:00

Out of no way, I have come across this picture.

Some of the statements are quite true from the reality that nurses face.

Nurses r just so great bcz of their indescribable TLC (tender.loving.care) to the ppl who r seriously ill,...

I still remember what my tutor told us,

Nursing is equal to Sacrifice.

Currently, I'm posted at ICU,also known as Intensive Care Unit.

The staff nurses over there r so awesome no matter in what aspects, theory, practical, emotional support, friendliness, their kindness,...etc...

Don't think it was Tinseltown hyperbole, Seriously I tell u, u can count their awesomeness until u drop! Means it's uncountable.

I totally salute them.

Well, being a student nurse, we can't do much for the patients but well we can help out, observe and most importantly, we can learn from them!

They made me feel so proud of myself.

Because, I'll be a future staff nurse,

Right?

Boredom

2010-10-25T12:54:00.006+08:00

I can say that I'm a girl who always get bored. When boredom strikes, many turn to sleep. Story ends with becoming more lazy.

Say NO to STUDY

Say NO to EXAM

Say NO to PRACTICE

Say NO to HOMEWORK

Say NO to ASSIGNMENTS

Say YES to SLEEP :)

I'm bored! :(

Sunday dinner!

2010-10-24T19:16:00.005+08:00

Japanese cup noodle+Ice Ribenna = my dinner

Force a smile like this =]

Knock on my head! Be thankful! Appreciate what Im having now!

(better than nothing to eat!)

Practice makes perfect!?!

2010-10-23T21:14:00.008+08:00

Today, I skipped my church service ~>.<~

Guess what!

I've spent my whole day in the demo room to practice for my

OSCE ( Objective Structured Clinical Evaluation )

which is our practical exam. It tests your skills, your knowledge and your speed and whatever!

It's a uber horrible exam for us 'cz we can't afford to fail any stations.

I actually spent 5 hours in the demo room!!

3p.m-6.00p.m

7.00p.m-9.00p.m

Woahh, I couldn't believe that!

C'mon gals, Let's pray hard to pass all the stations smoothly!!!

please please please...

Below r the pic taken in the demo room :)

Julie (tapping the air bubble in the syringe )

Me lol

Practicing bandaging

Sabrina (talking to the "patient") LOL

This pitiful mannequin is abandoned aside :O

Pass?

view from another side, pass lahh

Charmaine (don't hide -.-)

Crystal (preparing to give injection)

Ah poh (busy talking when doing dressing LOL)

How u handle ur stress?

2010-10-19T18:50:00.006+08:00

SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT!!

My practical exam is around the corner which is next week. There are 3 theory stations and 6 practical stations. Each procedure must be finished in 5minutes, if u can't finish it in 5minutes, I bet tat u'll get a heart attack and lie flat on the spot by the ring of the BELL!! THIS IS SO OHMAIGAWD!

Honestly, I'm a very nervous type person. It's very obvious n I fail to hide it most of the time. I'm the type of person who can't perform well whenever I'm extremely nervous. I really admire those ppl who still can perform their best even thou under alot of stress.

ROARRRRRR!!

I'M GOING MADDDDDD SOONN!!!

I'M EXTREMELY STRESSFUL!! I WANNA SCREAM OUT LOUD!!

To some ppl, I'm a very chillaxing person no matter what but there r somebody think tat I'm a person who has a puzzled frown on my face whenever I'm stressed up.

What do u think? depends on how well u know me :)

Well, I think tat in different situation I'll have different views and show different behaviours.

I can say that nursing life is full of demands, deadlines, stress, ups and downs. Stress is so common and it has become a way of our life. However, stress isn't always bad. Right?

For instances, in small doses of stress, it can somehow help us perform under pressure and motivate us to do the best. But, when we're constantly under high pressure, I think our mind n body will break into pieces. I think I should do something to bring down my nervous system and back to normal or balance otherwise I can't imagine the consequences as I know stress can be harmful if it is not appropriately used.

Whenever I'm sad or stressed, I resort to chocolate.

1stly, I'm a well-known chocoholic

2ndly, ppl said eating sweet things will release the happy hormone. In other word, it is an anti-depressant. :D

3rdly, it really tastes very very good and makes me feel good,weee...

I'm gonna relax my mind!!

Indulgence

2010-10-17T22:45:00.004+08:00

Currently I'm indulging in a song- Yesterday By Leona Lewis

[Lyrics]

I just can't believe you're gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise even without you by my side
When we have so much in store tell me what is it I'm reaching for
When we're through building memories I'll hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart

[Chorus:]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never played
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday

You always used to say I should be thankful for every day
Heaven knows what the future holds or at least how the story goes
(But I never believed them till now)
I know I'll see you again I'm sure no it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face but they can't take yesterday

[Chorus]

I thought our days would last forever
(But it wasn't our destiny)
'Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
Now I can believe that I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

[Chorus]

All the broken dreams take everything
But they can never have yesterday

Roarrrr!!! I want to sing so so so badly!!!

Study mood is in the air !

2010-08-05T19:32:00.004+08:00

Ah! Exam is coming again! Gonna move my lazy bum to study!

It's stressful to see ppl around me studying like mad but I myself only touched a few pages of the notes. *starts to feel guilty* :S

There is a pile of notes yelling and staring at me, perhaps I should be more diligent, no more last minute work. Everybody knows tat talk is cheap, action always speaks louder than words.

But there are things in this world called distractions!

Internet is the main culprit. Oh no I shouldn't start blaming the internet, I'm the one who should be self-motivated, be more responsible for my studies!

Blogging is to tell feelings.

I have too much to say...

Alright.

I should study now.

-signing out-

A Reminiscent Game

2010-08-03T18:54:00.011+08:00

Currently listening to : Theme of Prontera (one of the themes in the Ragnarok Online)
I miss my game terribly!! T.T

Ragnarok Online was once a very hot and popular game during my secondary school time.

I was totally addicted to it since I was standard 6, I couldn't believe myself can be so crazy over a game before!

U'll nvr noe how maddd i was at that period of time...

I played once I came back from my school...

I played until I forgot my meals and drinks...

I PLAYED until 5 a.m. in the morning even the next day was my test!

OH GOSH!! I din touch my books but gaming even there was an exam!!!! How terrible I was at tat time!

End up I screwed up my exam papers :S

I felt guilty afterwards and I slowly cutting down the time to play game..

RO is not merely a game but an AWESOME GAME!!

rawww...I miss all my characters in the game and the pets I reared in the game

Ahhh, I wish I can play right now but my time is packed and I don't think I can make it.

I got no extra time for RO! but other games like mini games do!

sigh....

Trying to dig some photos that I screenshot before,

Sadly, I have only 1 photo with me,

all my characters in trinity server (Ragnarok Online Private Server)

I miss the time playing RO with my sister and cousins..

*sobs*

T.T

My favourite wallpapers :)

TOP UP!

2010-08-01T22:39:00.006+08:00

Weee... I've finally topped up my food box!

Seriously, I can't live without 'em in my lifeeee!!

Snack foods!!!

I am labelled as perempuan mini market as I have a mini food box which always filled with all kinds of food!

Sad to say, some are buried underneath without realization, they'll be taken out when they're found expired, LOL!

That's why I always get scolded by my roommate for wasting food! ehehehe...Hey Seriously, I really din mean to do so :..(

You can find me for food whenever u want to but all of them r my favourites, sometimes I have to be stingy bcz I want to keep good things for myself, hohoho!well, jz kidding! Of course! I wont be hesitated to share my food :)

Specially thanks to mah family for the things that I need.

They purposely came here for me...

weeee...

Be Right Back

2010-07-02T22:35:00.003+08:00

Currently seriously busy for the new semester. A lot of thgs left undone, will update soon. :)

Things that left undone

1. Reflective Journals (omgosh!! few more hrs left! )

2. Assignments (last minute told to do oneee larr ><)

3. Pre-test revision & studies ( feel guilty for din touch it at all haha)

4. Cleaning and preparing for the new semester thingy :S

5. Wash my bags!!

etc...etc...

Now, wanna continue with my reflective journal writing! ciauuu...buaii buaii..

My prayer is heard :)

2010-06-30T21:40:00.002+08:00

YEAHHHH! I suffered uncountable hardships to fulfill the requirements for entering semester 3 and now I can shout out loud to say :" Finally, I've achieved those procedures that we r required to achieve!!!"

Lord has answered my prayer. AMEN!

:')

Random post

2010-06-23T21:51:00.004+08:00

After my shift, went out with a friend of mine.

We went to ss/2. makan n jln jln!

And!! she brought me to buy the thing tat I wanted so long!

heeeee heeeee

GUESS WHAT?

A New Bible xD

( need a handy bible desperately)

It costs only RM 26.95

hoho! Can't wait to wrap it nicely C:

=)

2010-06-10T11:38:00.006+08:00

JANG JANG JANG JANG!

*thanks to mok sis for giving me the shelves s it is vry useful for me ;p*

Finally, I moved my bum to tidy my table, previously I was busy working, too tired n lazy to clean up my place. *slap forehead*

Moreover, with luck, I got 6days off and went home for holidays :D

Thus, my place was kinda in a mess and still remained in a mess until I got back from my holidays.

But now, my table looks tidy, no more messy and unless it is clean C:

Oh yeah, happy with that, seriously I can't stand messiness. My temper'll become vry bad if sth messy irritated me.

My blog seriously nids more updates. Alright, I'll update bah but whenever I'm free lar xD!

I'm well-known pemalas no.1 !!!!

LAST NIGHT!!

2010-05-31T17:23:00.007+08:00

Tonite will be my 4th night(last) working in the busiest ward in the hospital.

Leg+back in severe pain! pain score : 10/10

Alas! How I wish d shift could end faster! Cz I can't wait to go home! :D

Bertahan-tahan, bersabar-sabar!

As I'm a nurse C:

Yeah Home, I'm comiiiiiiiinnnggg!!!!

Am going to see my Ahma, Papa, Mama, Jiejie, Nini, Poipoi, and Feifei xD

Laziness!

2010-04-25T21:15:00.006+08:00

Omgoodness!(⊙_◎)

things listed above never achieved.

Laziness always can't be cured!!

x.x

I'll update whenever I'm free..

currently drowning in busyness..

am so sorry..

(╯_╰)

2010-03-31T23:08:00.002+08:00

I'm very tired.

I dun want all these!!

I want a peaceful-and-free-from-stress life.

Thought of giving up...

I'm very weak, I know......

I just can't be strong.

ANGER TO THE MAX!

2010-03-11T01:03:00.005+08:00

Please allow me to write what i want to write in this little box! Please let me use the unpleasant words that I want to use. Please consent to my request! TQ behli much!

I've lost my mind, sorry Lord for using the bad words, the rude words, cursing somebody with the most harshest words in the world! I WISHED I COULD DO THAT. Sadly, I'm jz too kind. I said it but I din mean it! Being a good person is doomed to be bullied. You're good, u'll be bullied. This is life, this is reality. Nobody'll respect u even u soften ur voice and talk nicely, when u're irritated, ur voice louder, the more ppl look at u like nobody. The louder ur voice is, the more ppl put ur words aside. HELLO PEOPLE! BRAINLESS PEOPLE! GO BACK TO UR PLANET OKAY! SHUT UP BEFORE I TALK U STUPID FUCKING ASS! HATE TO LOOK AT THE FUCKING FACES, u suck, BITCHES! I din mean all, I meant some particular people! Are they human with ears and brain? I LOOK DOWN ON U FOR UR IRRESPONSIBLE ATTITUDE! sorry and sorry to my readers. I'm rude for the 1st time. My image is gone. Ohmaigawd I couldn't believe these words came out from my typing. When ur anger is at the max, u can't b calm. REALLY! u'll jz utter without filtering, u cant think straight b4 u talk. BUT DEFINITELY, I WONT KILL PPL! I'd like to express in tis little box, pour the feelings to the besties and the ppl whom i can trust to. After that, I'll forget everything. I cant remember what I've said, what I've done. I'll be normal back! Burst into tears because of anger but not sadness!

p/s: all the bad words that I've used aren't come from the heart but come out from the temporary anger. Once again, I apologize!

It's Sunday!

2010-02-07T14:24:00.007+08:00

Woke up in the morning and knew it's time to start the battle. I skipped church activities today because I couldn't move my bum to get up from the bed early in this morning. :C feel guilty for skipping church for so many days for some excuses.

*Sorry to the particular person who invited me for church activities but I've rejected for uncountable times due to some reasons ~).(~

Well, she is indeed a considerate person :D Feel blessed for knowing her.

It's Sunday again! Time reali flies! Time to go back hometown to celebrate CNY is getting nearer.

(Smiling) I miss home so much!!Well, I have to sit for the exam b4 CNY.

.Everyone is on stressed mood as the 1st test of semester 2 falls on this Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. However, I should relax myself. Do Something To Soothe My Mind!

CHILLAXX YO!!

Okay lar...

Now``

Go study!!

Study smart C:

Speak up....!!

2010-01-15T13:07:00.009+08:00

Hello my readers! I'm back again LOL >_>

Starting tis piece of post with negative things.

Sighing and shaking the head......sry la being abit emo...

I dunno where to release my feelings.

Studying and staying at this college without a place to release ur anger is very very suffocating, actually it's not all abt anger, I would say tat mixed feelings overwhelm me! I cant breathe!

I'm the one who oweys being quiet and showing I-Don't-Care-Attitude towards sth.

But in fact if u want me to voice out, I do have a lot to utter.

I don't really angry at somebody unless it is a very serious matter.

Seriously, I don't get angry no matter how terrible ppl treat me.

Sometimes I might show face and just walk away. After that, I can't remember anything!

I'm very tired of seeing ppl talking bad abt who-so-ever.

I'd like to tell them that,

GREAT MINDS

talk abt ideas

AVERAGE MINDS

talk abt events

SMALL MINDS

talk abt ppl

I hope u dun mind when i say tat if u spend hours arguing over smth tat is "nvm"

u're really out of ur mind!

By the way, I found tis from a book in the library.

Think positively! Whenever ppl say abt u/ scold u...

Just shoot them...

r u scolding me?

which part of me r u scolding at?

system? organ? tissue? cell? organelle? molecule? atom? particle? energy?

sorry, nobody is at home.

NO ONE is angry.

and u'll nvr b angry.

no matter how terrible ppl scold u.

HaHa! I'll apply tis if I hv a chance...

There are two types ppl in this world.

the good ones and the bad ones.

However, I would like to thank those ppl for being so nasty bcz they have helped me to develop antibody to the nasty-ppl-antigen. you'll meet many of them when u come out to work in the dog-bite-dog world!

Why we oweys say tat HABIT is difficult to change?

Let's see this, which I think it is very true.

take away the H, u have ABIT,

take away the A, u still have BIT of it,

and even aft taking the B,

u'll still have IT.

I do have some bad habits and I'll try my best to change.

What about the others?

question mark.

SPEAK UP!

Starbucxers!

2009-11-11T00:40:00.008+08:00

A delicious coffee smell wafted up from nowhere...it secreted my saliva!

What my 1st thought in my mind was STARBUCKS!

Then, after having dinner in the college,

I went to the nearest starbucks(hospital one la of cz LOL!) with my coursemates.

Pictures are below ;

LOL!! image spoiled cz' we din care our image! x.x"

OMG!

....Lay Lee, Vivian Phuah, Ling Ling

...me, xiao cheau(my roomate), and kok shi yuen(i oweys call her full name) :p

laughing n laughing -,-''

GO AWAY SLIPPER!

haha! Cute :)

well i like the cacat peace sign ;/

kok is trying to show her um...mmm...i duno! ask her ;O

omg bring outside food!

we hv no image :)

FOR STARBUCKS! =)

Always! starbucks 6rated!

Listening to : This I swear by Nick Lachey

Off day!

2009-11-05T14:18:00.013+08:00

This week posting timetable ;)

1 means a.m shift

2 means p.m shift

0 means OFF [how nice :D ]

and today, Thursday is my OFF day...

walala~

I woke up at 12.45p.m LOL

den took my brunch at this time... look at the white clock..mm..how nice ya :)

korean mee, orange, honey, orange juice, jelly n chocolate as well.. =) MY BRUNCH!

webcamming with tis fella while eating....o.O"

who is uglier?

tried to make some fun :D

okay okay let's be serious :]

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After that, I was too boring and took some pichazz of my room xD

~*~*~*~Welcome to my room ~*~*~*~*~

shoes rack! a lil messy..

door message..

mirror message.. ;p

some sort of...u noe...books and some stationeries...paper materials...bla bla..

my table euzz...

one of my roomates :D

my bed (up)

my babiesss!

oh my poor doggie!

awwww!! baby doggie! one kind of look -,- INNOCENT rite?!

doggie n friend wee weeee...

GOING OUT...

BYE!

I'M BACK!!

2009-11-04T22:32:00.008+08:00

A big SORRY to my readers! My blog has been abandoned for so long~ It is covered by spider webs, and u noe, dirts and stains and all that...bla bla bla..today I'm going to clear all of them!!

Why am i turning to blogging mood in a sudden way is actually due to this!

It showed my last update, it was 4 months ago! -.- Gosh!

I should update it to show that I'm still alive! ....so lame....

tsk! tsk! tsk!

I'm stuck in a series of questions :

what should I write?

what I want to write?

where should I start?

Hmm, what I can say is, I've grown up during this period..

-learn to be observant cz I hv to to be! must learn how to look at ppl's faces or else I'll get into troubles. There r diff kind of mankind, thr r goods n the bads one..aiya who duno!

-learn to be cooperative thou it is quite diff when I find smth tat I reali cannot accept it. *what to do* (shrugging)

-learn to be diligent! If u're not, plz get out of tis college! BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE...

-learn to be alert! I cant afford to make any mistakes! One minor thing leads to complex problem... Oweys remind myself to be ALERT!

-learn to be tough even though it is reali tough! withstand diff kind of pressures(from tutors,seniors,staff nurses, group gals,etc.) and of cz frm other aspects too! I must cope with it! be the miss-I-can-do !

-learn to forgive and forget! If u cant, oh no, u'll be suffering...lalala..

It is reali stressful to b here...

words cannot describe how stressful it is.

I'm completely weighed down by the stress tat acts on my body...

It is only semester 1 and i find it is not a relaxing semester..

wat about the up-coming semesters?

of coz they wil b more tougher n tougher...

I ain't afraid to face challenge..

In fact, I'm still learning as learning is a long-lived process!

what I can conclude is, nursing is reali challenging!

Litany of farewells !

2009-06-29T13:56:00.012+08:00

....goodbye to my bedroom, goodbye to my cupboard, goodbye to my books(I'll bring some of u)...
goodbye toilets, goodbye kitchen, goodbye living room, goodbye televisions, goodbye fans, goodbye air-conditioners, goodbye windows, goodbye doorknobs, goodbye carpets, goodbye YOU STUPID SPIDER'S WEBS AND LIZARDS!!...
[Lastly, ONE BIG GOODBYE TO THE WHOLE HOUSE!!)
I'm going to KL to start my nursing course on Wednesday. "Hello hectic & busy life I'm coming, Bye Bye to my happy and free life!~"Sigh, damn emo now, dunno how to describe my feeling right now. Am unwilling to bid farewell to every brick and board.
I'll miss home like crazy for the 1st week in KL. :S
ahh...not that bad actually...It's time for me to start life afresh, begin a new life and turn a clean n new page! Anticipating the new adventure, a new world to conquer and hundreds of new friends to make with.
Alright, I'll miss my home, my family, my cousins, my friends, and my... ...
With God, I'm not alone
force myself to fake a smile like this :]
Here I post some of my lovely bedroom pics ( a bit messy i noe :/ )

Awww!! messy!

*ignore my sis*

my stuffs ( I'll miss all of you,bubububu..)

Okay, back to packing! A BIG SIGH! >.<

Listening to : You Are Not Alone By Michael Jackson

Current Status :

Relative's wedding dinner

2009-06-21T23:14:00.025+08:00

I attended a wedding dinner yesterday.
nth much la....jz wana post some pichasss...XD

STUPID BROTHER!!! STILL PLAYING ON THE BED B4 LEAVING THE HOME!
*slap forehead*

fuiyo, i like lily's pretty legssssss o.O" I only have fat thighs T.T

start d engine of ur kancil larrrrrrr chew ah ying!

ahma is scolding us as we're still taking photos..AHMA QQ

Sisters

took with an old friend!

* muacks * ahma!

Specially for JuJu =) [tar ku ma]

LOL my relatives! they r vry farnee! haha

(roarrrrrrrrr...I'm going to eat u up! lol )
WHAT THE HELL I CANT BELIEVE THAT I'LL POST TIS PIC *rolling on floor laughing*

*adorable* awww!! Theng Theng hughug

*cute* muacks muacks! Hey little white angels! Look at the camera and show ur peace sign v^.^v

C:

*dunno wat they r talking abt*

Sis n I <3>

*lol* cute la both of them! rawww!

we love sticking to each other ;p

blabla~

yengyeng and nini

nice one~ especially the balloons~

:) *ignore my stupid weird leg*

* I super like tis pic..ahahaha*

LAUGHING OUT LOUD! *nobody wanted to help me!" *blushing* what a weird pose!

nini and I

A Narrow Escape

2009-06-16T15:00:00.032+08:00

I'm very thankful and glad that I'm able to sit in front of the laptop now sharing my terrible experience with my readers on my blog.

Last Tuesday, 9th of June,2009 will b the date to b remembered forever. I had no inkling about this event would befall us that day-and what a day made me realize many things.

Last Tues, one pleasant afternoon, dad, lil sis and I got off to KL straight after preparing everything. We went to KL to do our thing, dad wanted to go Government Department to do his stuff and I, was asked to go for an interview(nursing) on 10th of June at assunta college. We planned to stay at my relative's home in Seremban for one day. It was the very 1st time we didn't use highway to KL because dad needed to go to other places to do his stuff. On the way, we had some chit-chat and listening to my dad's favourite old love songs and singing along with it as usual. I still felt happy and calm at that time.

After a while, sis fell asleep. I was smsing and dad was driving quite steadily larr at that time. To my horror, I saw my dad was heading towards a big bus in front of us. He seemed like didn't see it. I was so horrified that I was unable to warn my dad. My lil sis was sleeping soundly, unaware of the danger we were running into. At the last moment(our front car is jz a few centimetres away from the back of the bus), my father was like suddenly awoke and saw the danger and when he tried to apply the car brakes, OH NO!!! exactly the "Bangggggggg" that we can see from the movies. We screamed! The loud bang was deafening, THE LOUDEST BANG I'VE EVER HEARD IN MY LIFE! Hey Man, I was in the car. Try to imagine how fast my heart was pounding at that moment. I flew to the front due to no-seat-belt like what the actors and actresses acted in their movies. *sobsss* My both shanks injured as all the force acted on it. THE IMPACT WAS SO BIG AND U JUST CANT IMAGINE IT! I thought I would die. I was reluctant to die as I'm so young and I haven't achieved many dreams and blablabla. I was so blur and blank and painful as well at that time. "Ya, I'm still alive, what abt my two dearest family members in the car?" My 1st thought. Phew, I felt relieved when I saw my lil sis n dad were okay. U noe what? They did fasten their safety belts so it prevented them from being thrown forward. I was the only person who was injured because I didn't buckle up my stupid seat belt! -_______- Later, my dad quickly phoned my 2nd aunt in Seremban for help.

I saw my dad very pale face, I was frightened for him. He didn't noe wat he was talking. I saw him mumbling and shivering there. Obviously, he was in the fear.Sighhh..

Then, all the passengers got down from the bus and tried to help us. I was so happy and grateful when a kind man was too eager to help us. He sent us to d clinic. After that, he fetched us to d police station. We spent almost 2 hrs to finish our stuff. After that, we met up my 2nd aunt and my uncle and my cousin as well. I hugged them once I saw them. Their presence brought a kind of comfort. They were like saviors for us. >"<)

After I got home(Seremban), my right leg was swollen and reddish. I yelled in pain. At that night, I didn't sleep well. I cried so much as I was in pain and also because of I didn't prepare anything for my interview. I left everything to God.

The next morning, I went to KL for my interview. (one of the interviewers supported me with her hand and I limped painfully to the conference room and everybody took a pity on me. >.< )
* remove the interview part * (a very long yet funny story )
[I dunwan to make this piece of blog so long, so tat my readers wont feel boring to read such a long page. Okaayyy! I passed everything! I've been accepted by the college and I'll be going to study on 1st of July. God Bless Me!]

After that day, I came to realize that life is too precious to be taken for granted. I came so close to death and I still shudder at the thought. How it happens and when it needs to happen, no one will ever know, so treasure ur life n try to take each day and make it worthwhile.

*not the scene of the accident*

our toyota innova *sob*

*bye bye lor our car* u'll be missed terribly. T.T

The accident taught me a lesson that I'll nvr forget,
ALWAYS fasten your seat belt!!!!!

Sometimes I wonder.....what if the car we used tat day was kancil...the consequences are unpleasant...
TRY TO IMAGINE WHAT IF IT WAS A KANCIL PLUS NO SEAT BELT!!!??
LIKE TIS?

...
......
.......
or even worse?
*slap myself* and stop thinking!!!

p/s : I'll upload more photos If I'm free...leave comments ba~! Ask me anything if u want to. Quite blur la my blog sry la i wrote too long n not organized...ciau sin! rest my legs! T.T..

Sigh!

2009-05-18T17:08:00.009+08:00

NOTICE : 2nd person came down with the H1N1 flu in Malaysia. BEWARE Malaysians.
Sigh, now i realize tat life is really short. A kind of feeling tat doomsday is nearer, Perhaps Tomorrow? For u n me, today is all we have; tomorrow is a mirage that may never become a reality. Take care people.

Memorable Trip ~!~

2009-05-18T15:40:00.037+08:00

I took a vacation with my sister and her friends in Langkawi Island by plane a few days ago. The trip was memorable and wonderful. I'll nvr forget the sights, sounds and the smells of the beach. Took a deep breath, and I could taste the salt in the air. Looked up and the sun reflected off the water in shining colours. The scenery was all laid out like an exotic nature drawing in an art gallery. The sun was so warm against my hot skin, the salty wind kissed my face. Woots, d calmness soothed my mind! weee~ The flawlessly sunny, hot, stuffed, beautiful and wonderful day where it was just brisk enough to get my blood rushing and hot enough to wear a singlet. One sentence, Langkawi is indeed a beautiful island! I had visited many famous places that I've never been b4.

Duh, I'm too lazy to list down when,where and what. Just see my pictures bah. :)

Friends asked me how was my Langkawi trip?
I answered them : "Trip was nice but my body wasn't good. >< "
Serious sunburn, Face swollen, Fever, Skin Allergic all together visited me aft the trip. HORRIBLE! HORRIBLE! My fever never gone down and made ppl suspected me come down with H1N1 flu (ohmaigawd!>_<")
Phew, I am feeling much okay aft 3 days resting at home. *thank God*
I wana get away from the very-plain-and-tasteless-make-my-mood-down bread, very-boring-and-not-tasty cereals, super-duper-bitter-make-me-cry medicine blablabla *yeaiks* :O~
Hey man, I've finally lost 2kg! 3days torturing meals to lose weight. *slap forehead*

erpz, I'm very hungry now. I'm going to go get something to eat. I want to munch my favourite white chocolate that bought from Langkawi Island. HoOoOo..HooOoo..ciau! (: *grin*
CHOCOLATE, HERE I COME! *big smiles* finally something sweet can go into my mouth to release my happy hormone lolsss
Dearest readers, enjoy my photos; *winks*

well well, don't forget 2 camwhore b4 flying LOLs

...going to fly..

nice one (:

Clouds always make me think that heaven is actually vry near.

me lar duh

my sista

warm water~

our 1st meal in Langkawi. (not delicious at all)

The boss of the restaurant snapped for us.

Proof!

Staircase phobia!

cold water

so happy to reach here. *tired* fuiii

Standing on the top ~

Not to forget to take a picture b4 leaving this super-high-so-called-7-wells

I cant believe that I'm here LOL

652.5 meter dun play play

hanging bridge! *caution*

took with a foreigner

black sand beach

the history board abt the black sand beach

I can tell u, the sand is very soft.

LOL!! (click on it)

I love tis photo the most!

ahaha (:

is my pose seducing the photographer?! OHMAIGAWD!?

posing..LOL! im not gud at it

Beach party~ (drunk)

can u see a pregnant woman lying thr? AMAZING!(click on it would b clearer)

on the boat~

It's a lake

I'm super hawt! can u see my sweat?LOL

juz nice :)

the water is so clear~

Everybody is crazy for him! Awww he's hawt man!

beras basah..

..like hugging my hubby..*lmao*

(last day) leaving..

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JANG JANG!(5 stars rated)

*laughing out loud* HAHA i still love tis photo the most! sry ya sis *rofl*

Questions !

2009-04-17T20:41:00.013+08:00

FAQ(s)
Q: Why do u want to be a nurse?
If u want me to give the answer, there'd b alot. Because ;
To find a doctor husband? (lol, not at all! Who says other professions cant get a doctor husband?)
I love helping people. I feel a sense of indescribable happiness whenever I help people.
I'll be learning alot of things during d studies and the learning process is a wonderful thing.
It is a challenging one!
It is a secure job with steady income. (tis is not so important! lols)
I simply love the white uniform. (rofl)
I think nurses are great!
I love tis profession!
etc.....etc.........

Q: Yer, wont u feel geli meh?need to inject the big needle into ppl's flesh!Ouch!and the blood yeaiks!when they vomit, aiyer u hv to clear it, and hor, u hv to cuci their punggung..u can tahan anot?
Gosh! It isn't tat disgusting MAN!
Actually u should think like this way, seeing the patients suffering on their beds, u hv the ability to help them, isn't it a wonderful thing?u're like an angel for them, u help them n they appreciate u so much, when they thank u, oh tis is so meaningful! and tis is priceless la dengz! I always think that We can do great things for the Lord if we're willing to do little things for others.

Q: Are u sure tat u can b a gud nurse in the future?
Yes. Reason : nothing special but having faith.

Q: What makes u want to b a nurse/ What arouse ur interest in nursing?
Erm, actually I cant give u the specific ans. I think during visiting my godmum who suffered from lung cancer at the hospital. "most probably." She complained bitterly that those nurses' attitude r bad,bla bla...At that time, I told myself that If I wanted to b a nurse in the future, I definitely woudn't be like them. And, Whenever I watch drama, I admire those nurses who stand beside the doctors, bergaya ni~LOLs juz kidding :p my mind is made up aft getting spm results as I do not show any interests in other courses. Just thinking of I'll b in my white uniform in the future lifts my spirit up and make my day feel gud. :)
LOL!

There are two types of people react to my choice ; wahhh! and yerrr! that's all! -.-"

Let fate decides what the future holds for u!
Always remember that with God, all things are possible.
*Smile*
:)

Never Ever Give Up!

2009-04-16T22:27:00.001+08:00

As my friend said, life is hard nowadays,
either u fail to get d scholarships or people don't wanna hire u....
Actually, sometimes we need the element of luck when doing smth, such as applying for scholarship, applying for jobs...(sighh...)
If u're not selected/hired, never mind, keep going!
Because life itself is filled with obstacles & problems, only time & effort ensure success, right?
Life is just like 3 words to describe "tough" "sturdy" & "triumphant".

Everything happens for a reason! We should b thankful for the life gives us & sweep up the depression & let the light shine in.

Leaves (suits my blog title)

2009-04-11T00:28:00.007+08:00

叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
天堂原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘当初怎么开始飞翔

孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘当时是怎样有人陪伴

我一个人吃饭旅行 (到处)走走停停
也一个人看书弹琴自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

叶子 - 阿桑

wootss..a song by a singer, she passed away jz few days ago, bububu >.<

My 18 Birthday!

2009-04-04T01:04:00.026+08:00

Question : " How was ur 18 birthday?"
Answer : " Incredible! Awesome! Fabulous! I had a wonderful birthday celebration! lolss"

I was excited when my 18 birthday was approaching.
Aherm, I had indicated what I'd like for my presents :D (barbie dolls)
I thought tat I'd get it on my birthday. :/
Uh-huh, the day has finally come, 3rd of april! (snickering)
wooots, friends invited me for a dinner on that day but they hadn't choosen the venue!
I suggested PIZZA HUT as I miss the aroma of pizza so much, I love the taste just feel like wanna have a bite of it immediately, Oh I couldn't resist the lure of mushroom soup.. (aww, hunger for that! slurp slurp! drooling at the mouth d la yo, lols?)

My simple birthday invitation note (rofl) sent thru msn only la HAHA

Venue : Teluk Intan Pizza Hut
Time : 8 p.m.
Purpose : Sze Theng's Birthday Celebration
Attire Colour : White!

I was the 1st person who reached pizza hut. I thought tat I was late. I kept waiting n waiting. The impatience showed on my face ~.~ I met my another friend who was also celebrating his birthday at pizza hut! same date as mine..weee..What a coincidence! haha!
Finally, 8.45p.m! one of my buddies appeared in front of me! Gosh! FINALLY! O.o"
that was Meaw Han! :D
then, friends came continously.
Peiting, Chien Yun, Teik Chuan...
Ei? that's all? I asked!
I was told that shuang couldn't come back to Teluk Intan for my birthday celebration as she was still in KL. :/ quite sad for tat & emo for a while (dramatic sikit la, haha)
I turned around n looked behind me.
Ohmaigawd! I nearly shouted out!
"why r u here? them hui shuang!" I was reali touched!
Hui Shuang, Limlim & Mokie were there.
all of them purposely lied to me just 2 gimme surprise! What a nice surprise! wow! that would be the best present of all!
Pizza hut restaurant was filled with laughters, happiness & excitement as there were 3 or 4 birthday gals n boys celebrating their birthdays.( I was one of them, heee heee ^^)
We ate, joked, laughed, so much of fun :)
btw, the pizza disappointed us. tsk! tsk! tsk! One sentence to describe. ( we r eating rubber la! lolsss)

received presents : 2 cakes, 2 glasses, 1 notebook, 1 chocolate, 1 singlet, clothes . . .

Thanks to :
Charyene(sis), Lily(sis), Dad & Mum, Shuang, Cyun, Peiting, Mokie, LimLim, Shujie, Duckie, Hoe Hoi, Ahmao, BoonGuan, Lisong, Aiai, Meawhan, Julian(god sis), Teik Chuan, Yeehuey, Edwina, etc etc..
too many to list down.

I enjoyed very much :p
Thankiew! my buddies
wow, u can see the difference
between my 17 birthday & 18 birthday! C:
read this blog ba! LOLZ

p/s : my long awaited present still did not show up. bubububu

♡ My birthday cakes n I ♥

SCREAMING!

2009-03-18T13:10:00.016+08:00

*SCREAMING*
Please move my lazy bum!!!!!
ouh sheeeettt! my butt is sticking to the chair and I can't move at all..
*screaming out loud for HELP*
looking around the room..oh gosh! so messyyyyy!! I'm too lazeee to clean it ! ahh..this is not me!! -____-
I'm just too lazee to move..
please move me...bubububu..I'm so lazee duh.. *slap & poke myself*
I'm sitting on the chair..staring at the laptop screen..clicking here n there..
searching for colleges..
ahhh..why so hard to get a sch?
there r so many choices..hantam aku!
which one is the best for nursing? I've no idea..diff ppl hv diff views diff ppl gv diff opinions..
Ahh...I feel like screaming out loud!!
HELP! HELP! HELP!
JESUS, CAN U HEAR ME??!
Guide me! without u, I am nothing!

Recently, thr r many calls from colleges & universities..
5 calls per day & minimum of 6 msg from them per day! quite fed up with it..grrr
ohmaigawd!
Moreover, their open days r on the same date. hantam aku! :S
I'm getting tired of non-stop calling the school for detailed information..
I think even they get annoyed of me for non-stop calling them..
or may b their 1st response when they see the same number..
"aih..she again..." ! rofl
sigh..
why cant they talk nicely? They asked me to online to check by myself..wth??! ganasnya -___-
*frustrated*
*grumbling*
*irritated*
*fed up*
*annoyed
*angry*
*vexed*
*impatient*
so much of complaints..sigh..since when I became like this? I get irritated easily nowadays..I dunno why :(
bubububu..
sorry! may be I'm not in a mood or smth la..cheh..alasan LOLs!
wat so ever!
Hopefully I can get the "best" school for nursing ASAP!
reasonable fees, quality teachings, well located hostel etc..etc..

Btw, I found smth quite fun from the internet...hey buddies u shud try n see wats ur results..lets see who can type more than 90 words per minute..leave a comment i wanna noe whos the fast typer..wootss :O

I can type 75 words per minute only :(
*sad*
75 words

Typing Test

aiyayayaya...my fon is ringing now...from mahsa college..woootss.
ciau..
bye!

two days one night in KL

2009-03-16T18:28:00.014+08:00

I'm so tired....aiya jz got bek from KL..
exhausted! exhausted!
>_>
U know what?
we walked all the way once we reached pudu..
We boarded LRT to times square just for eating shabu shabu!
LOL?
My friends were reali crazee with it..and I duno why!?!
the meal cost us around RM100+ Holyshit!
thr r 8 people there so each paid RM25 for it..
and ..it was not tat delicious as what we expected.
ouh..high expectation made us disappointed!
too bad! But I was very very full..
the tomyam,chicken soup were inside my stomach.yum yum
My friend kept giving me food..
even if I told her tat i was too full to eat all of them.
GRR!!
the meal made me gain more weight! sheeett!
My legs were indeed painful..
after that we planned to watch some movies but sad to say
it was already 10+
Nou..we shud go home(not my home kay! my friend's home)
at 1st, i thought of staying at my godsis' s house..
but lastly,
I stayed at friend's house..
I wasn't sleep really comfortably..
or i shud say i nvr slept at tat nite..

>.< WE DIDN'T HAVE ENUF BLANKETS!
and I hate the not-very-cold-aircond
I can't sleep well with the aircond on.. I'm such a freak! ya I admit!
I saw my friends sleeping so comfortably. I dared not wake them up..
the next morning, omg! my dark circle!
My friend shouted at me OMG! what happened to u? u din sleep well?
I said :"nope, U shud say I nvr slept" LOL!
I was okay! I get used to it....hahaz
We packed up then ready for going to KLCC.
at 1st, we planned to watch some movies..
but lastly we ended up with shopping cox we almost watched all the latest movies.LOLs
kept walking n walking oh ya..
BOOKSTORE! My favourite <3
I went there with a friend then the others went to food court to hunt some food
They were super hungry as we din take our breakfast before going out..
I spent quite alot of munny in food, LRT,bus,KTM fares.
So I did not hv enuf money for some shoppings.
OH too BAD! I NEED CASH!!
Well, while we shopped around..
WAHHHHHHHHH I shouted! U guess what?
I saw my lovely barbie dolls. <3
friends looked at me in a vry strange way.
. "u play barbie dolls??" they were shocked!
"..nope..i love collecting them.." i said
"wow, how many do u hv at ur home now?" *curious*
"er..not even one..lols" *shy*
"huh? i tot u hv zillion of them?.." they laughed at me
RM100+ for 3 sets of beautiful attires n shoes with a cute barbie doll
awww I WILL BUY U SOON! but not now.. Lols
i will use my 1st salary to buy lolololol..
then we walked to the educational fair..
aft 3 hrs
"er..still not satisfied? "Jom we go to midvalley another educational fair."someone suggested
aiyaya..
I got lots of brochures and i needed some plastics bags. :/
aft tat, we took dinner at the food court then went to pudu kfc
haha..we we discussed abt our future while waiting for the 8pm bus at kfc.
then WENT HOME
and byebye tats all
[the crazee bus driver drove 120km/h]
GANASNYA~
I reached home at 9.00+
u can imagine how fast is was !
LOLs i shud stop writing ..
actuali I stil hv long way to go
sry to my readers I wrote rubbish! ><
dengz! too bad we din take even one photo
aww...rawww..awww
#$%^&*&^%$#@$%^&

BIG SIGH!

2009-03-12T16:33:00.008+08:00

*a big sigh*
never felt so down before..
I was like falling down from the high hills..
ouch..
It was so painful..
speechless...
SUCK SUCK SUCK!
the feeling sucks!
Please don't ask me anything!
Please and thank you!

I'm a loser!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHIT!!!

I feel guilty for getting this freaking suck ugly results. I'm sorry, my parents, my teachers, etc.... I didn't get what ppl as well as myself expected me to get..holy sheeettt !!

Listening to:
A Fragile Heart by Westlife

A Blissful Insomnia!

2009-03-11T01:57:00.012+08:00

Oh I can't sleep ! I dunno whats wrong with me! Ahhh!!
Ouh I found that my blog is so boring!
No pictures!
So I post some pictures.
taken at the midnight Lolsss..

Me : "(staring at my sister who is having exam tmr) Wey, why r u still dunwan to sleep..."

Sis : " I cant sleep lar...wanna study..tmr got exam.."

Me : " Oh sheeeet..I dunno whats wrong with me...I couldn't sleep well for these few days..How?"

Sis : " What to do...me either..."

Me : " Sighhhhhhhhh..."

Sis : " Let's take some pictures..."

Me : " wah..u want to camwhore again?"

Sis : " take la take la..."

Me : " -________- kay la.."

nah..here the pic..Lols..just post for fun :P

She likes this the most :/

haha..nothing..just for fun :p

I like this the most..lols..

and..she doesn't like this the most :S

Haha..she is so cute..xD
er..see behind us..the stupid boy!! -_______-"|||

OH MAI GAWD! I CAN'T SLEEP!! HOW?
HELP!!!!!!
> <

Listening to :
Ocean Size Love by Leigh Nash

Personality Test~!~

2009-03-09T16:13:00.008+08:00

hohohoho...just for fun! But I found it was pretty fun :D

u guys can try it. (:

and this is the results of my test...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Nervous = Headache !

2009-03-06T16:53:00.016+08:00

Amazingly,

I slept at 8p.m yesterday(right after the dinner). lolssssssss

Granny :" why r u brushing teeth? don't tell me that u're going to sleep now!.." she looked at me in a very strange way!

Me :" erm...ya! I'm very tired plus I'm having a headache!...I can't stand it anymore..i want to sleep!.."

Granny :" Okay okay...Good nite."

Me :" Goooooood nite everyone..."

My bro n sis got a shock! Lolsss

Bro n Sis :" Are u crazeee? this is not u..u usually sleep at 2 or 3am..." *laughs*

Me :" You won't know the pain!! it is killing me!! ur sis is going to die...laugh sumore!" *groaning*

Bro n Sis :" Are u sure???" *Grin wider*

Me :" whatever! I'm so tired...please don't talk to me..don't disturb me..." *closing eyes*

Bro n Sis :" AMAZING! theng theng(the way they call me LOLz) wants to sleep now..woootzzz...!" *laughs even louder*

I dunno what happened around me after that....
Because I was in my dreamland. :)
I wasnt sleep very comfortably..
I had a nightmare yesterday!
Oh Gosh!!
In my dream...
I was taking SPM. -_____________-|||
I entered the exam hall with a pen! "just a pen!!"
I sat down.
and very soon I got the question papers.
I looked at the questions!
My mind went blank. I didn't know how to answer all the questions!
I refused to hand in blank papers..
I wanted to write something but I just couldn't!
I couldn't write even one word..
I felt the tension when looking at the clock!
GRING! times up!
Finally, I handed in the blank papers!
>_>
It was freaking scary!
I've never tried this before..Oh My Gawd!
I thought that I would fail all the subjects!
The feeling sucks..sorry I shouldn't use this word "again"
But it really sucks!!
Euzzz...I hate it!
After that, I woke up
Phew! I sighed with relief.
Luckily It was just a dream!
I looked at my watch.
It was only 7.00a.m
So I decided to continue sleeping..Lolss
Oh, I had a dream again >_>
This dream was about SPM results.
I reached school.
I looked around.
Everybody looked satisfied with their results.
I was very very nervous..
Then,
My form teacher- miss khairunissah
Called my name in the hall..
CHEW SZE THENG!
" Yes I'm here..." I answered
I was stunned..
I didn't want to see my results..
She announced my results.
"Aherm, you got 8As! Okay la, not bad la..u can go home now. Congratez!!.." she said.
After that,
I heard somebody talking..
then I woke up.
It was a dream again!
Omg.
my dreams were all about SPM.
I think I'm suffering from nervous tension!
>_>
I've no idea whats wrong with me..
I will suffer from headaches whenever I'm nervous!
Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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